Every time I go to Nebraska I wonder when I will be back next.
I really thought last summer was the last time, but I just couldn’t stay away from my high school friends. My brother had no trouble letting go of his life in Papillion, but I’ve had a harder time. I made a solid group of friends that still connect with and care about. I don’t want to let them go.
I got a Snapchat for Erika’s birthday, but also because it’s a good way to keep up with the friends I don’t get to see all year. I guess I felt a little bit of fomo.
In all reality, the next time I will be in Nebraska will be for someone’s wedding. I’m betting it will be Ben and Jenna first. I don’t know if I’ll even be invited to Josh and Morgan’s, if they even get married. Gabbie is pretty serious about this 26 year old German guy so she’s also on the short list. The rest of my friends are pretty far from marriage. Including me, lol.
Every time I come to Nebraska I love it. But I also know it’s not where I’m suppose to be. I don’t feel like I belong here anymore. Papillion has moved on without me. Schram road has been paved all the way from my high school to shadow lake shopping center. Mason still lives at home, but Erika lives in Lincoln, Gabbie lives in North Omaha, and Zak lives in Crete. The feeling that I don’t belong just gets worse every year and I feel like I’m missing out on my life in Texas.
I don’t want to go back to Nebraska. It’s just a bunch of people holding me back and a few great friends that I will always have if I need them. It’s been a weird realization, but I think it’s productive.
So here are my favorite pics of my last days in Nebraska.