mollie taylor’s chemistry themed 21st birthday party // fall 2015
I want to be a pharmacist.
I know I’m way too cool to be counting pills and listening to people complain about their insurance for a living. That’s not the part of pharmacy that interests me.
I learned a stunning fact while I was researching pharmacy: one third of preventable hospital deaths are due to drug to drug interactions that doctors and nurses are unaware of.
That’s what made me want to do hospital pharmacy. As a hospital pharmacist, one works with a team of doctors, checking on how the drugs are effecting their patients and what drug to drug interactions are occurring. They are basically an extra set of hands to help the doctor. They answer questions from doctors, nurses, and families. They check prescriptions and dosage. They interact with the patient to find subtle side effects. They take vitals and analyze them to be sure the medications are having the correct effects.
They also do normal pharmacist jobs like making complex prescriptions and diluting medication for children, but they don’t deal with patients’ wrath directly. I don’t want to interact daily with angry, sick people from behind a desk. I don’t want to listen to complaints about insurance not covering the full cost of the medication they need. I’m just not equipped to deal with those people for the rest of my life. And it sounds boring as shit. I know I will start out working in a HEB or Walgreens or something once I’m a certified pharmacy technician, but I can do work like that when I know I’ll be moving on to something I actually enjoy.
I think working in a hospital would be exciting. I may have unrealistic expectations due to my Grey’s Anatomy addiction, but I think my personality will thrive in a hospital environment. It’s fast paced, so I won’t have a chance to get bored. It’s challenging, so I can continue to grow. It’s always changing, so there’s always new information to digest. It’s complex, so I will never have to stop learning. It’s impactful, because I would be saving lives and improving life quality every day.
I used to want to be a doctor. I study hard enough to make it through med school and I know I would love learning all of that information. I would love making a difficult diagnosis as much as I love fitting that last piece of a puzzle into its spot. I don’t love the years of being an unpaid resident. With Obamacare, it’s hardly worth the effort to be a doctor. I don’t think I could have time to make a family, provide for a family, pay back my loans, and be a resident. I don’t want to be a stay at home mother, but I want to be able to eat dinner with my family and ask my kids what they learned in school. I want to be around them enough to instill my love of learning in them. I never want to miss a birthday, a soccer game, or a piano recital. I want my kids to know I love them more than my career, but I want to be successful in my field. All of that simply isn’t possible as a doctor.
I’ve also though a lot about being a PA. The school is only two years, and I know that would be a positive for most people, but I love being a student. I don’t know if I could deal with taking orders from doctors who think they are smarter than me. I mean, they would know more than me since they went to med school and I didn’t, but if they treat me like less of a professional because of it then I really don’t think I can handle it. PAs also get more of the patient interaction, which is not a positive for me. I love people and I’m extremely extroverted except where science is involved. I would rather focus on the biochemistry behind the disease than the person with the symptoms. Sick people freak me out a little bit, but I’m hoping I’ll get over that since I want to work in a hospital regardless of what I do.
My degree plan is on track for pharmacy school, but med school PA school have similar requirements. If I want to apply to those schools too, it won’t be a problem, which is a huge relief to me. I don’t have to have a concrete decision right now. Even though I’m pretty sure I want to be a pharmacist, I can still jump ship and be fine.
I want to have a fulfilling career. I want to be a wealth of knowledge. I want to know everything. I want to be challenged. I want to help people. I want to read studies that make huge strides in medicine. I want to do research that impacts the world.
I’m going to do all I can do to make sure I get everything I want out of my future career.